I think I’m not the only one who goes back into my hedgehog-house when I’m asked to write an entire page about me? But to get to where I’m at now, I’ve had to come through a journey. And I want to share some of that here.
So where does our journey begin
I started having my mental health go downhill in my pre-teen years. I was autistic and lived with my nan, so throughout school, I was bullied for being different.
At that time I really wanted a relationship with my mum – but I couldn’t have one. Being different and not finding anywhere to fit in despite my attempts to try meant my mental health went downhill.
It went to some low places. I certainly hit that place called “Rock Bottom” and scrapped along there for a while. I had anxiety and depression, and I talk about my journey over on my mental health blog.
But I found a purpose helping others
This started when I was around 14 and replying on the ChildLine message boards. The service helped me a lot, and on the message boards, I was able to reply to people, but also read and see that I wasn’t alone on my journey.
At 16 I started my mental health blog so I could share what I had been through to try and help others. Writing about what I had been through, helping others showed me that I had a reason for the day.
I wrote along the way
Writing was how I expressed myself on this journey. Through my words, I was able to create a world of my own, to express my feelings in a safe space – safe as I was the one who created it.
While I don’t have as much time for my fiction I do occasionally share a short story or two when I have time to write.
So where am I at now?
Thankfully I’m through the worst of my mental health and know that I have people around me to turn to, and ways of coping so in most cases I don’t need to do that.
However, it’s still something that affects me, and something I talk about visibly on my blog and social media. Those periods of low mental health are always going to come up in my life, but I know that when they do, I can cope.
How did I get into marketing?
Throughout this journey, helping people has given me a purpose. And other than mental health – that’s marketing.
I love getting involved and sharing tips on my socials. I’ve found purpose doing something, a life through mental health lows. It’s something I’m fortunate to have.
And that’s about it
I don’t believe that there is a place of “recovery”. Recovery is a journey, and I’m always going to have those low moments. But now I’m in a place where I’m able to do what I need to do, to throw myself onto social and get involved in a community and be happy doing it.
This is the place that I never thought I’d get to. And now I’m here. And if that means I’ve recovered, I’m happy just this once to say “I’ve recovered.”